Be still and know that He is God.
Be still and know that He is Holy.
Be still, oh restless soul of mine,
Bow before the Prince of Peace,
Let the noise and clamor cease.
Be still and know that He is God.
Be still and know that He is faithful.
Consider all that He has done,
Stand in awe and be amazed,
And know that He will never change.
Be still-
And know that He is God.
Be still.
Be speechless.
Be still and know that He is God.
Be still and know He is our Father.
Come rest your head upon His breast,
Listen to the rhythm of
His unfailing heart of love,
Beating for His little ones,
Calling each of us to come.
Be still.
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written by Steven Curtis Chapman
3/31/05
3/8/05
demotion
I've been informed that my blog postings are usually depressing. And just to convince you I'm not a generally depressed person (although I do often write when I'm down in the dumps), here's a reason to smile:
I asked for a demotion from my job yesterday. Yep, that's right. I'm still wondering if I may be crazy, but I'm rather giddy about the whole situation. I told my manager it was just too much, these nights and weekends, and I didn't feel like I was taking full advantage of spending time with friends and family. I told her I believed relationships were more important than my job, and it was time to set my priorities straight.
I wonder if people will believe that. I wonder if anyone will congratulate me on my demotion (ha ha!) or if they think I'm just not ready to accept responsibility. But you know what? It doesn't really matter what they think. They don't know the conviction the Lord has laid on my heart to be a more dedicated wife and friend.
So here I am, heading into my last week on the management team, excited to be a housewife, excited to spend more time writing, excited to be able to spend time with the people I love, and especially excited to spend more time with God. This is the life!
I asked for a demotion from my job yesterday. Yep, that's right. I'm still wondering if I may be crazy, but I'm rather giddy about the whole situation. I told my manager it was just too much, these nights and weekends, and I didn't feel like I was taking full advantage of spending time with friends and family. I told her I believed relationships were more important than my job, and it was time to set my priorities straight.
I wonder if people will believe that. I wonder if anyone will congratulate me on my demotion (ha ha!) or if they think I'm just not ready to accept responsibility. But you know what? It doesn't really matter what they think. They don't know the conviction the Lord has laid on my heart to be a more dedicated wife and friend.
So here I am, heading into my last week on the management team, excited to be a housewife, excited to spend more time writing, excited to be able to spend time with the people I love, and especially excited to spend more time with God. This is the life!
3/7/05
to maggi tasha jake tami joe tony ash luke kristen lindsay bethany chris kenton tifani tommie brooke jason jeff mathew dixie and brandon
Inadequate. That's what I am. I take you to a place to see poverty, to help poverty, and I choke up. I guess I expect you do the work because I sure can't find the words. I just stare. I just listen. I think, "Boy, I hope they make the most of this opportunity to touch lives because we may never get to do this again." But I don't make the most of it. I choke up, inadequate.
Inadequate. That's what I am. I watch you take in James's words and I hope you're getting something out of it. That's what we planned it for, after all. For edification. But I don't get much out of it. I think about other things. Like myself. Like my life with Kyle. What are we doing here? What are we gonna do when our church runs out of fumes? I choke up, inadequate.
Inadequate. That's what I am. I hear you sing, excited to be together, excited to be praising your Father. I think, "Boy, I hope they make the most of this time because this is when we felt the Holy Spirit come down last year." It sounds beautiful. I wish I could sing like this more often. But instead of praising God, instead of thanking Him for here and now, I just hope for more opportunities in the future. I choke up, inadequate.
Inadequate. That's what I am. Inadequate to make anything of our time together. Inadequate to praise God. Inadequate to share His Word, His Love. Inadequate to serve you. Inadequate.
I don't know why I'm telling you this. Maybe because I realize my need for accountability, and you're the people close to me, with whom I'd love to be vulnerable. Maybe because I want you to know that under whatever facade I may put on, I want you to know that I'm broken, hurting, in desperate need to know more of God. And inadequate. Inadequate to thank you for coming and blessing my life more than words can say.
Inadequate. That's what I am. I watch you take in James's words and I hope you're getting something out of it. That's what we planned it for, after all. For edification. But I don't get much out of it. I think about other things. Like myself. Like my life with Kyle. What are we doing here? What are we gonna do when our church runs out of fumes? I choke up, inadequate.
Inadequate. That's what I am. I hear you sing, excited to be together, excited to be praising your Father. I think, "Boy, I hope they make the most of this time because this is when we felt the Holy Spirit come down last year." It sounds beautiful. I wish I could sing like this more often. But instead of praising God, instead of thanking Him for here and now, I just hope for more opportunities in the future. I choke up, inadequate.
Inadequate. That's what I am. Inadequate to make anything of our time together. Inadequate to praise God. Inadequate to share His Word, His Love. Inadequate to serve you. Inadequate.
I don't know why I'm telling you this. Maybe because I realize my need for accountability, and you're the people close to me, with whom I'd love to be vulnerable. Maybe because I want you to know that under whatever facade I may put on, I want you to know that I'm broken, hurting, in desperate need to know more of God. And inadequate. Inadequate to thank you for coming and blessing my life more than words can say.
to john
John--is that even your name? I have a hard time remembering.
Where do you get your passion, John? Where do you get your questions? You were elated to have us pray with you. You were so excited you took over and praised God Almighty with your own lips. Then you asked us, "What do you know about God?" and "What do you know about God?" and "What do you know about God?"
What do I know? I said I knew that God is always there for us.
Would I know that if I lived where you live? Would I be as excited as you were to pray with strangers, strangers dressed in good clothes, strangers whose faces glow with health and life, strangers driving nice vehicles, strangers who have plenty to give away and only offer one bag full of food we'd never eat ourselves, full of food we didn't pay for?
Dear John, where do you get your passion?
Where do you get your passion, John? Where do you get your questions? You were elated to have us pray with you. You were so excited you took over and praised God Almighty with your own lips. Then you asked us, "What do you know about God?" and "What do you know about God?" and "What do you know about God?"
What do I know? I said I knew that God is always there for us.
Would I know that if I lived where you live? Would I be as excited as you were to pray with strangers, strangers dressed in good clothes, strangers whose faces glow with health and life, strangers driving nice vehicles, strangers who have plenty to give away and only offer one bag full of food we'd never eat ourselves, full of food we didn't pay for?
Dear John, where do you get your passion?
to charles
Charles, I know I did most of the listening. I had things I wanted to say, but I didn't have the words to say them. Sorry.
You said you hate it under that bridge so you sleep in your truck. I wanted to tell you how God cares so much more for you than those birds hopping around on the ground beside us. I wanted to tell you how my God says if we have food and clothes, we're supposed to be content with that. But then I wondered how much food you get. And I realized how much stuff I have, and how uncontented I am with it. So I figured I shouldn't be the one preaching.
You said you took an entire year out of your life and read the Bible. Now, you don't read it, but it's in your heart. You showed me pictures of your ex-wife and kids. You showed me a picture of the woman you just left. I didn't see the pictures of the other two. I wonder what your parents taught you about that. I wonder what you thought when you read the story about the woman at the well. You showed me a picture of your boy in prison garb. He's out now; hopefully he doesn't have a gun.
You shared your life. You shared your thoughts. You said faith is most important, and faith without works is dead. You talked and I listened. You shared, even though we were the ones who barged in on your life.
I'd never think of doing the things you've done.
But you taught me something. You reminded me of the place in the Bible that says, "to whom much is given, much will be required." And I wonder... for all that I've been given, am I a better servant than you? My life has been saturated with opportunities to read, and sing, and be taught by my family. And you? You find joy in "Amazing Grace." You know that faith without works is dead. For the scrap of exposure to Christ that you've been given, I can't help but realize... you are. You're a better servant than I am.
You said you hate it under that bridge so you sleep in your truck. I wanted to tell you how God cares so much more for you than those birds hopping around on the ground beside us. I wanted to tell you how my God says if we have food and clothes, we're supposed to be content with that. But then I wondered how much food you get. And I realized how much stuff I have, and how uncontented I am with it. So I figured I shouldn't be the one preaching.
You said you took an entire year out of your life and read the Bible. Now, you don't read it, but it's in your heart. You showed me pictures of your ex-wife and kids. You showed me a picture of the woman you just left. I didn't see the pictures of the other two. I wonder what your parents taught you about that. I wonder what you thought when you read the story about the woman at the well. You showed me a picture of your boy in prison garb. He's out now; hopefully he doesn't have a gun.
You shared your life. You shared your thoughts. You said faith is most important, and faith without works is dead. You talked and I listened. You shared, even though we were the ones who barged in on your life.
I'd never think of doing the things you've done.
But you taught me something. You reminded me of the place in the Bible that says, "to whom much is given, much will be required." And I wonder... for all that I've been given, am I a better servant than you? My life has been saturated with opportunities to read, and sing, and be taught by my family. And you? You find joy in "Amazing Grace." You know that faith without works is dead. For the scrap of exposure to Christ that you've been given, I can't help but realize... you are. You're a better servant than I am.
to gina
Gina, you've lived there for seven years. Seven, while I've graduated high school, college, gotten married, and built a place of my own. What dreams fill your life? What empassions you? Your only prayer is for safety; mine is for job stability, fellowship, comfort, children, and a feeling of settledness. What a wretch I am. I couldn't feel the squeeze of your hands while we prayed with you. I couldn't feel your body tremble with the tears that filled your eyes. But as you turned away with your bag, your meager food provisions, and your prayer, I knew I wanted to see you again. I wanted to cry with you and hug you. I wanted to talk to you about Jesus. I wanted to be your friend. Can I come over again some other time?
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